grieving

sadness due to loss of a loved one

I will always miss you

It's been almost four years and my heart still aches. I will always miss you. I am in a different place than I was four years ago, but I will always [...]

May his memory be a blessing

So many days and dates have passed. A year from when I was in the hospital came and went. I meant to acknowledge it and I did, in my head, but not through my [...]

Down the Rabbit Hole: In and Out of Sanity

If you feel upset reading this feel free to stop. It is my journey, not yours... Saturday October 18 2014  I had tried it all - psychotherapy, grief [...]

A belated farewell to Robin Williams – sometimes it feels like it’s about me

Robin William's death was beyond tragic. If I could have been with him I would have told him how I struggled with this myself. I wrote a few blogs about a [...]

After He Was Gone: My new reality & my old demon – depression

I haven’t written a blog since May: After He Was Gone: Darkest Days. It was just under a year, the long weekend in May, when I had a breakdown, actually one [...]

After he was gone – 11 months, I am…

It’s been 11 months since I touched his hair, smelled the cologne on his shirt, traced his fingers with mine. I haven’t marked every month through [...]

After he was gone: Right between the eyes

Some days you think everything is o.k. Then it hits you right between the eyes. Bam! My inner voice asks, What was that? I thought I was fine. I start [...]

After He Was Gone: Who will I share my stories with now?

Today was a good day but (the BUT) I want to post something about what I'm feeling. It is more of an information piece to get you thinking about who you share [...]

Three months after he was gone

This blog will seem disjointed as you read it. My thoughts are disjointed, but I think it will all come together if you read through to the end. September [...]

One month after he was gone

Today marks, by the calendar numbers, one month since he died, June 8, 2013. Last week I didn’t cry. Instead of finding solace in not crying I worried [...]