Paying Homage: Who was he?

I recently took part in a memoir writing course, hoping it would help me write the memoir I’ve been struggling with – about my life with Bob, my husband who died four years ago June 8th, and grief, and whatever else this book will be when I write it. But I just can’t seem to get the writing down in any way that isn’t jumbled. I tried to write a [...]

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One Day at a Time, Part I

In March I wrote about the fact that I was taking a program - Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) for Depression. This was the second mental health therapy program I've taken [...]

Up …Down… Up

I am trying to write from the heart but my words keep getting tripped up by my mind. Life keeps us on a rollercoaster. When we go up it’s exhilarating. Then swoosh [...]

For a thousand years

I have been at a loss for words for months.  But as I approach the second anniversary of Bob's passing, June 8th, I cry more often, sleep less, feel desperately [...]

Metamorphosis – gently climbing out of the cocoon

My fingers get caught on the strings, my hands and legs are tangled, words stuck in my throat make it hard to breath. I am entering the metamorphosis of my new [...]

Alone and Lonely

The last post I wrote was when I was in crisis. I am through that portion of the journey, with lots of help. I have been in group therapy and continue this route. I am not [...]

Down the Rabbit Hole: Finding my way out

My first message to friends and family from the hospital October 28, 2014 I have thought about writing but honestly haven't had time and I'm not sure I can put this into [...]

Down the Rabbit Hole: In and Out of Sanity

If you feel upset reading this feel free to stop. It is my journey, not yours... Saturday October 18 2014  I had tried it all - psychotherapy, grief therapy, grief [...]

After he was gone: confusion and grief consuming

This week I went to Jewish Yom Kippur services. This is the part of the Jewish High Holidays celebration and this particular day is called the Day of Atonement, where we [...]

A belated farewell to Robin Williams – sometimes it feels like it’s about me

Robin William's death was beyond tragic. If I could have been with him I would have told him how I struggled with this myself. I wrote a few blogs about a recent bout I went [...]

After He Was Gone: My new reality & my old demon – depression

I haven’t written a blog since May: After He Was Gone: Darkest Days. It was just under a year, the long weekend in May, when I had a breakdown, actually one of two, leading [...]